Atletico Binmen

rlly rlly busy, 'k? Comics reviews tomorrow. Promise.

Terribly Flat

So this came about a few years ago. It was the last holiday Emma and I took together before she died; we'd gone to Morocco on one of those all-inclusive resort things, but got bored and decided to go off on our own for a while. We hired a car (and that's a story that must be told at some time) and headed off over the Atlas Mountains from Agadir to Marrakech, during which journey Em told me about her eccentrically-dressed and flamboyantly gay client Daniel. As she filled me in about this corduroy-and-high-heels-wearing friend of hers, the radio, which until then had been playing undistinguished Arabic pop, suddenly started blaring out, in English, There Are Bad Times Just Around The Corner by Noel Coward (there seems to be no umlaut available, for which omission I apologise both to you and to The Master). 

The following is what we wrote during the drive. 

The North Africa Song

It is 1932. In an intimate nightclub somewhere in New York, or perhaps on an ocean liner at full steam in mid-Atlantic, the bright young things sip Manhattans and Sidecars while pop-eyed waiters bring trays of fried oysters. Into the spotlight steps a tall figure in white tie, hair slicked back to accentuate his aquiline profile. He smiles tightly at the audience, sits at the immaculately polished Bechstein grand, runs off an introductory glissando and, in a perfect clipped English voice, begins…

We have a friend called Daniel

He’s going to Maroc

To see the sights but mostly ‘cause

He likes a bit of cock.

And so we’ve done some research

To help him out, and then

Dan can go off travelling

And shagging other men…

We strongly recommend to you the old bazaar in Cairo

For just a couple of pounds they’ll do

Unspeakable things with a Biro

Your dear old mother’s mother, please don’t take her to Sudan

They’re all gerontophiliacs

Gagging for shagging your nan

Take the train to Marrakech if you’re fond of anal sex

But if the locals catch you at it

Then they’ll happily wring your necks

Please try to smile although the Nile’s quite boring and banal

You’re sure to find a chap who’ll take you

Right up the Suez Canal – ooh!

It’s a joy to take a train to Casablanca

You can easily find a rentboy who will wank – ya – off!

But in Tangiers

They frown on ginger beers

The very concept makes them quake and quail

And if you go to Agadir

Be careful if you’re queer

‘cause they’ll throw your arse in jail

(Though you might like that)

Throw your arse in jaiiiill!

My Dog Ate It

When I foolishly said 'a post every day', I thought it was obvious that weekends wouldn't count.

And I've been really busy for the last few days.

And I've been prepping/researching for an interview tomorrow for a position of (waggles head raffishly) some responsibility with a (shall we say) large, household name, store.

Because earning a proper living takes precedence over entertaining you sods.

Which is a shame, because I have this big pile of new comics here and I'm knackered after a long, non-stop day so this is the perfect time to do Sleep-Deprived Comics Reviews but I really have to get an early night.

Tell you what, how about some slush-pile-filler-type stuff, just for now?

OK.

...And Relax

A couple of years ago I did the most stressful job I’d ever done in my life. It managed to be both boring and demanding, the people I worked with were to a man absolute arseholes and the entire company was run by a woman who micro-managed every single tiny element of the proceedings but made damn sure she took no responsibility for anything that went wrong.

I did this job because at the time my father was in the final stages of chronic illness and it was very important that I was able to get home in short order should the need arise, and the company was based five minutes from the house. Believe me, when the old man passed away, I took as much compassionate leave as was available and then some.

Years before that, I held another position that was equally if not more stressful, with a Ops Manager whose only purpose was to find a reason to fire the entire staff. Yet I enjoyed that job. Why? Because it was ninety minutes drive away from home. Getting there in the morning was an hour-and-a-half of just me and the radio. Going home was the same thing, and in that long drive up the M1 I could sing very loudly – loudly enough to get quizzical looks from other drivers even on the fast stratches – and change from Work Me into Home Me.

Decompression. That’s what it was all about.

So: two posts ago we left each other at the traffic lights. This is where we pick up.

I walk to work. I walk back. It’s about three miles, an hour, both ways. In that time I can grab a coffee, look at the shops, generally change from Home Me to Work Me and back again.

The halfway mark, the point where ‘leaving work’ turns into ‘really on the way home’ comes at the Beehive, my favourite pub. I don’t often stop there because I don’t drink much at the best of times and drinking alone is never a good idea anyway, but it serves as a marker and as a psychological threshold, so that’s good.

There’s always a fellow lurking around that area; he walks up to you and goes into the same routine every time. “Sir? My name’s Gary and I’m homeless. I wonder if you could spare me a pound, or maybe buy me some chicken?”

I’m not a monster. The first time I ran into Gary I gave him a couple of quid. After a few approaches, and because my mood fluctuates wildly at the best of times and because I’d heard the same spiel once too often, I stopped giving him cash, or offering to buy him food (which he’d politely reject, despite having made such an offer part of his request. Another reason to stop). Instead, I’d politely rebuff him and go on my way, while he’d amble on to McDonald’s or Asda and find somebody else to entreat.

Two Saturdays ago, after an especially trying Timmy Time and a longer, slower than usual walk to the lights, Gary came up and with his usual “Sir?” and got shorter shrift than normal.

Just up the road – and by now it’s dark, and it’s started to drizzle that fine rain that isn’t noticeable at first but still manages to get you soaked through and I’m wearing a lightweight jacket because it was fine this morning – somebody else comes up to me. Bloke about my height and build, bearded.

“Excuse me Sir, could you spare a pound? I’m hungry and homeless and – “

I look down at the fella’s feet. He’s wearing better shoes than I am. I hitch my backpack up onto my shoulder. There are a couple of Ethiopian guys standing talking outside the grocery shop I’ve just passed.

“Sorry mate, no change.” This is true. I even pat my pockets to demonstrate.

“Please, Sir, just a pound – “

“No, sorry mate, I said I’ve not no cashon me.”

“Cunt” he spits, and walks off.

I’m a reasonable man. Good-natured. Generous. Over this last year I’ve had some problems but they’re under control. I don’t throw tantrums, I try to defuse situations through discussion and patience. But this, this sends me into an instant rage.

“What did you say, sunshine? Come here and say that again, you fucker.”

There’s the tell-take, the giveaway. My everyday voice, the voice of amiable regret, disappears just like that, and instead I’m a roaring North Londoner, there’s a rasp where there should be honey.

“Cunt” he says again. And that’s it. I’m after him. The Ethiopians take a step back as I run past them and grab him.

“Don’t you fucking call me a cunt, you little fucker, I’ll have your fucking - "

And he raises his hands. Maybe to defend himself, I don’t know. But it’s enough. I do something I’ve not done since I was seventeen years old and standing face-to-face with someone who, at that moment, I hated with a passion.

I hit him first. Right fist to the side of his head. He jerks his head back, more in shock than pain. Tries to throw a punch back. Doesn’t manage it. I get another one in. Then turn around, hitch my bag up again, and walk away. I don’t look back, knowing that if I do and he’s coming after me, this could become very ugly very quickly. What if he’s got a weapon? I don’t want to feel the quick coldness of a blade, or worse still not feel it but only find blood through my shirt as I walk off. I don’t want to die on a sodden lousy street in Tottenham, under the dingy yellow light of a Turkish supermarket.

But he’s gone. So I keep walking, no quicker, keeping the same pace as before, until I reach Bruce Castle Park and the sure knowledge that this is going no further.

I get out the pack of nicotine gum, pop a fresh tablet, and head home. 

Before We Get There, Though...

So, where were we?

Ah, yes. Before we return and get to the nub of the matter, and because this is an occasion where I’m not at home on a proper computer but am instead at somebody else’s home on a mobile app and determined not to break the daily post rhythm, two things.

First, the traditional Emergency Picture, not of the usual Debbie Harry;

 

And second; there’s a TV on in this place and it’s showing 2 Broke Girls. It’s, ah,,, horrible.

That is all. 

Take A Deep Breath, And...

It may come as a surprise to those of you who know me as a wisecracking, fun-filled ball of merriment, but there are times when I’m not the most cheerful man in the world. God knows, there have a couple of posts on here lately that might have had the more empathic among you reaching for the phone to ask if I’m, you know, alright, but let me assure you that A) yes, most of the time I’m fine thank you and B) I never answer the phone.

Nobody’s ‘on’ all the time though, and I’ll be straight with you; if you know what’s best for you you’d be well advised to steer a wide berth on Saturday evenings. My old man used to be a bugger for this; on Sunday mornings; there’d be a regular sideshow going on, as he’d get up in a bad mood, open the living room windows and ceremonially throw each one of our admittedly over-numerous cats (Mum was a bit of a soft touch for a waif or stray) out into the front garden, calling each one of them a selection of ripe names as he did, and there they’d sit, momentarily stunned by this impolite and thoroughly unwarranted intrusion into their busy agenda of sleeping on the sofa, licking their own backsides or wailing for scraps, then slip down the alley and come in the back way, where Dad would find them, pick them up, and chuck them out the front again.

I don’t think I’ve inherited the old man’s at times incandescent temper, being more of a slow burner, but Saturday afternoons really do get on my wick. For a start, while any sensible person would have spent the day having a lie-in, maybe taking a leisurely fry-up and a wander around the shops before settling back with Final Score and contemplating what debauchery the evening might bring I, working as I do in retail, would have spent the day at work. And, working as I do in what we refer to ‘Specialist Retail’, I’ll have seen most of the day spent staring into space, or processing stock, or just begging silently for somebody to come into the shop and either have a conversation or, you know, actually spend some money.

It doesn’t help that Saturdays usually follow a pretty well-worn routine: sod all happens, then at about twelve I go out and get coffee and have a chat with Gareth in the Blackhorse Workshops; then sod all happens, then Mo comes in with more coffee, then sod all happens, then it gets a bit busy when the locals go for their afternoon stroll, and then, just as the metaphorical factory whistle gathers a head of steam for its final blow, it’ll be Timmy Time.

Timmy Time begins with a 158 bus pulling up outside, then its doors open, then nothing happens for a moment or three before, from its depths, a blue carrier bag makes its appearance. This is followed by its owner; a lumbering creature in soiled tracky bottoms and a t-shirt of no small vintage, over which is casually - and literally - thrown a beige suede jacket decorated by a selection of interesting stains. This fashionable ensemble is completed by a baseball cap embroidered with the logo of some long-forgotten West End musical flop; Oscar Wilde, perhaps, or Sing-A-Long With Pol Pot.

All of these clothe the fulsome figure that is Timmy. If you need to know what Timmy’s like, let me tell you this: I once had to accompany him home when he was having one of his more emotionally fraught afternoons. This meant getting a cab and staying with him for the journey as it was not entirely a certainty that he’d be able to recall his own address, then seeing him to his door after slapping a tenner into the driver’s hand (“I’m not letting you out, I’ve seen too many runners lately”) while I walked with him, at a pace which even the most relaxed flaneur would describe as leisurely, to his door. There, his mother, a gaunt woman in an acrylic pullover and an expression far wearier than you’d expect even on someone in their latter years and with a slightly handicapped fifty-year-old son, thanked me for seeing him home and explained, obviously not for the first time: “He was a difficult birth”. I of course told her it was no bother and hot-footed it back out onto the street, just in time to see the cab’s tail-lights as it disappeared around the corner, leaving me on a nondescript Chingford side-street with no idea where I was, as cold rain began to fall.

So: Timmy’s a challenge. But Timmy’s also good for about eighty quid a visit, so you knuckle under and get on with it, knowing that no matter how much of a strain dealing with him is going to be, you’re safe in the knowledge that at least he’ll be the last customer of the week and from here on in the weekend’s your own.

Timmy likes Spider-Man. A lot. His baggy-necked t-shirts generally feature some representation of his hero, or sometimes of Harley Quinn, the psychotic one-time sidekick who became a sensation in her own right (and yes, I’m fully aware that I’m talking about fictional characters as though they were real people with an actual existence and everything. Perk of the job, y’know?)

Because Timmy likes Spider-Man a lot, he buys every Spider-Man comic that’s published. Which is a lot of Spider-Man titles. Core books, spin-offs, mini-series; Tim buys them all, plus a load of other stuff, all of it tucked away by either myself or the boss as part of our “You call it a Standing Order, we call it Guaranteed Money” service. Like I said, eighty quid a week.

What Timmy likes to do is to be handed the inches-thick pile of publications that we’ve put aside for him at his request, then spend as much time as possible looking at the shelves, then ask whether any title has been cancelled – this is regardless of whether he reads this particular book or not – then chat to anybody else who may be in attendance about what they’re reading – and this is regardless of whether they join in the conversation, smile politely and edge away, or just flat-out ignore him. Sometimes he goes up to another customer and just starts to riffle through whatever they’ve picked up, but we’ve explained to him more than once that if you do that, then in the fullness of time you will get hit. Then Timmy does What Timmy Does.

What Timmy Does is order more books than he can afford in any given week. It’s okay, it averages out over the month, but in two weeks out of three he has more reserved for him than the budget allows. So that’s our first question (and when I say ‘our’, I mean ‘my’, as by this time the boss is hiding in the back room, supposedly backing up the database or doing the last admin of the week, but in actuality strumming on the acoustic guitar he keeps out there for just such eventualities). “Tim, what’s your budget?” And Tim will tell us: it’s eighty quid. Sometimes it’s fifty, or in lean weeks it’s thirty. If he’s been to the theatre – and you’ll have gathered from an earlier paragraph that Tim like a musical, which I’m also quite noted for, and I’ll admit that if I’m in a good mood I may occasionally strike up a version of Fugue For Tinhorns or another of the tunes from Guys And Dolls or whatever he’s been to see – it may be as low as twenty. In a week when he's been paid for his job of collecting trolleys in a supermarket carpark, it may be as high as a hundred and twenty.

That’s when we start the real work. Tim will sort his pile out into the books he really wants to take this week, and the books that he’d like to take this week but which aren’t vital, and the ones that can go back in his box until there’s cash enough to cover them. I’ll add them up and give him a total.

And then he’ll go over the shelves again and add some more. Won’t tell me, mind. Then he’ll take things out his ‘buy’ pile and swap them for things from his ‘put them back’ pile. Won’t tell me. So the whole ‘reaching a final total’ thing can take a while. Also, during this it’s usually rubbing closely up against closing time and I’ll have been there for nine hours already so I’m not really willing to dawdle, especially as there’s shutters to bring down and lights to turn off and all the other tiny locking-up-the-shop jobs that when put together can add up to a good ten minutes worth of labour. That’s about the pount where I lower my voice into a friendly-but-menacing growl and mutter “You’re on my time now, sunshine”. Timmy doesn’t really care. He’d happily be locked in the shop all weekend, though I’ve pointed out to him that the alarm system is motion-triggered so if that were to come to pass he’d have to spend two entire days not moving a muscle of his considerable load.

Anyway, the long and the short of it is that by the time we’ve been through this palaver, then found out his ultimate choice of purchases, wrested actual cash out of his wallet, and totalled up the till, and done the credit card reconciliation, and locked up, it’s a good half-an-hour after Official Going Home Time.

I was asked, just before my birthday, if there was anything I’d particularly like as a gift. Yes, I said. Come to this shop at half past five on a Saturday – don’t tell me which Saturday, I’d like it to be a surprise – see the fucking idiocy I have to put up with, then just drag me out to the nearest pub and pour gin down my throat until it’s all been blotted out. Hasn’t happened yet.

Not that this is the end of things. The final act of this hebdomadal hellishness (and yes, my battered old Roget was brought into service there) is Seeing Timmy To The Bus Stop. This is a relatively new thing: whereas in the past Tim would walk in a different direction from me to reach his transport home, lately he’s chosen to join me, and occasionally Coffee-bearing Mo, to the traffic lights at the top of the road, walking at a stately place, making small – microscopic, in fact – talk about his favourite television programmes and generally delaying the journey home even further. When we reach the crossing Tim, being a stickler for road safety, will refuse to even contemplate putting a toe across the tarmac until the green man is firmly shining from his little box. Once he reaches the other side – and more than once he’s been distracted long enough to miss an entire cycle of the lights despite me standing next to him shouting “TIM! IT’S SAFE TO CROSS NOW!” at him – he bids us goodnight then walks all the way to his original choice of bus stop, which is opposite the bloody shop.

Yes, I know I’m being less than charitable. Impatient, certainly. Maybe even a little cruel towards the differently-able. And I’m aware that for somebody like Tim, somebody with learning difficulties, physically unprepossessing and emotionally fragile enough to be stressed to tears by the sort of incident that you or I would simply mutter an under the breath cussword at, these visits are probably the only social interaction he has that doesn’t involve ostracision or humiliation. But bloody hell fella, at least try to get a wiggle on, will you?

So you’ll see that rather than fill me with the joy that most people feel at the end of the working week, rather than stoking the anticipation of joining colleagues and friends for a post-toil booze, Saturday afternoons and early evenings just get on my sodding tits.

But here we are, two thousand words in, and we’re about as near to the ostensible subject for today as astrology is to common sense.

So: same time tomorrow?

Decide

Had to take this one down. Too much potential for relationship-destroying repercussions. One day, when everything's all sorted out, it might be re-posted. Unlikely, though. 

Another day older

Yesterday was good.

Eight of us around the table in a small alcove, just enough room to stand up so long as you did so slowly enough to check the decreasing space between the roof and the top of your head. Enough of a delay from the previous occupants that a round of drinks was comped. Small things, but pleasing ones.

If it’s a metaphor you’re after, here’s one. Family and friends together, breaking bread, talking, doing what people do when they’ve known each other for a long time but don’t see each other enough. And this time, the new addition, the one who so far has been a separate thing; known of, spoken about, but distinct and discrete from the long-termers.

But here she is, sitting by my right hand, trying to be heard above my brother. Strolling up to another place after the evening broke into its different parts, talking to the other women and getting on fine.

It’s all worked out beautifully and everything is all of a piece. So, for as long as it lasts, and I doubt it will last much longer, let’s just appreciate what we have and enjoy every second of it. 

Right...

Suddenly it’s three years later than it was.

Time is passing, too quickly for my liking, but that’s what time does and you can’t rail against it for being true to its nature.

I promised myself, three years ago, that posting something here would be a daily occurrence, even if that daily occurrence consisted only of a few words of no importance. What mattered was the forming of a routine, and sticking to it, and maybe, eventually, making something of it.

That didn’t happen, mainly through laziness, partly through other things that got in the way.

So.

Let’s try again. 

Oh, How The Ghost Of You Clings

The question is: should I go out and buy a packet of fags?

It’s this ‘Stopober’ thing that brought the matter up. Stop drinking. Stop smoking. Stop eating luxuriant food. Stop doing all the things that are enjoyable, the things that make life worth living, and do it all in the name of charity.

One has to ask whether those self-righteous souls who are denying themselves pleasure are following this through and actually donating to charity the money usually spent on fun, and one has to answer ‘probably not’. In the same vein, one has to ask whether at the end of this week, when October ends in a flurry of badly-carved pumpkins and unwelcome knocks on the door from small people who can’t be bothered to dress up but think it’s socially acceptable to demand coins – not sweets, mind you; they pooh-pooh the proffered fun-size packs of Smarties and instead rail for cold cash – when the haunted month gives way, as it must, to chill November and its accompanying charitable effort ‘Movember’, when all men with a working hormone must cease the daily meeting with badgerhair and razor, growing instead some abomination on their upper lip, will they be handing over the necessary to Sue Ryder?

Will they hell.

As a card-carrying contrarian, or at least as one who would be such a thing if the very idea of officially being anything didn’t bring a shudder of disgust, I’ve found ‘Stopober’ to be the ideal time to stop stopping. Since the beginning of this month I’ve enjoyed the first proper drink since June (although there have been a couple of minor lapses, both involving dinner with the same woman who stares reproachfully at the lime-and-soda or the Becks Blue as she gleefully sinks another large vodka) and, as a result of having an abscess the size of a small orange on my lower jaw, there’s been a lot of time spent in the blissfully muzzy realm, just a press of the bubble-pack away, of the prescription painkiller. What a place that is. Just cordoned off enough from the real world, a place of light-footed pleasure and winter-jumper warmth, a place that you know would be a delightful holiday home for a week or three if it wasn’t for the persistent weight on the shoulder of addiction. I know how easy it would be, and how much it would be enjoyed, so into the bin the left-overs went.

Returning briefly to ‘Movember’; my face has been partially concealed for some months now by what can only be described as ‘a beard’. It’s not a big beard, it’s not the full Brian Blessed, it’s kept down to a number two trim with the aid of a Babyliss, but I like it. It suits me, it makes me feel more myself than I have for too long. It’s grey in patches, which isn’t good, but those melanin-free areas have the effect of slimming the face, of reducing the increasing sagginess of the jowls. I’m told it verges on ‘sexy’ and given the sudden rise in the number of far-too-young women I find myself flirting with, I can only concur.

But it’s that month, the month when beards are a badge of Doing Your Bit, and I don’t wish to be a part of that. Should the beard, then, be sacrificed in the name of personal freedom? Trimmed a little closer? Washed in its entirety down the bathroom plughole of social friction? No, I like it too much. And it likes me.

Back to the fags, then. Our present standard-bearer for the cigarette is Nigel Farage, he of the saloon-bar bonhomie and the unpleasant views and the followers who fall like electrocuted flies as one by one they find their pasts – and their presents – dredged up and flung into the antiseptic glare of public approbation. Association with him, even if only by dint of a shared vice, is unacceptable. Obviously there’s the health risk, and the smell, and the noxious nature of the smoke, which drifts into others’ lungs and makes their day a little less pleasant. I believe there’s a down side as well.

As with the drink, I can’t say nicotine hasn’t paid the occasional clandestine visit over the last few years. Many who consider themselves to be non-smokers can put away a packet of twenty in one evening, just as those who consider themselves teetotal can find themselves sprawled on somebody else’s sofa, awash in empty Lambrini bottles, on a Friday night when their guard’s down.

Things have never gone that far, but occasionally, at the end of a long day, a packet of ten has found its way into the jacket pocket, joined in their journey by a box of Swan or a transparent lighter. Each time ends the same, like the morning after a bad one-night stand; with the shabby packet cast into the bin the next morning, still eight-tenths occupied, the previous night’s exotic glamour exposed as a bad dye-job and an ill-fitting dress.

So, then, to hell with it. I fancy a smoke so I’m going to have one. I want to feel the edges of the pack give slightly under the pressure from my fingers. I want so badly to tug at the tear tape as if it were the zip on a lover’s gown, to see the match flare and light up my face, to feel the brief giddy rush as the first deep intake floods my body. A good cigarette, enjoyed in the moment; as a sole pleasure, not to be a habit but a barely licit indulgence, is almost – only almost – as great a thing as good, and preferably equally barely licit, sex.

There’s a shop down the road.

Let’s go.

FOOTNOTE, FIFTEEN MINUTES LATER: Nine pounds eighty five? For twenty Camel? Nine pounds eighty five?! Bollocks to that.

Just Cracking The Fingers Here...

It’s been a hell of a year for spiders, hasn’t it? There’ve been some big ones. I mean really big, fuck-off sized buggers, big as your fist with legs thirteen inches long, strolling across your living room floor like they own the place, which as far they’re concerned they do and never you mind whose name’s actually on the paperwork.

I don’t like them. I’ll be upfront about that, I don’t like them and I never have, We’ve come to something of an arrangement lately though, I won’t hit them with a shoe or blitz them with fly killer (which might not work on spiders, and if it does, isn’t it kind of like friendly fire for them given that they’re flykillers themselves?) so long as they keep on walking and get out of my sight pretty sharpish and don’t creep up on me along the back of the sofa or across my feet because if they do that then I’m sorry but the truce is over and I’m bringing out the big guns. Big shoe. Whatever.

I have a friend who loves them. He’ll stand and stare at them for hours, he says they’re lovely delicate things that we should watch and admire. He’ll get right up close to them and study them as if they were kittens or roast beef sandwiches or something that isn’t intrinsically evil, and I’ll see him doing this and I’ll say Steven! Step away from the spider! It is intrinsically evil , it is worse than Crippen and Doctor Doom and Jeremy Kyle all rolled into one! If you do not move away from the spider it will attack you and it will burrow down under your skin and get deep into your inner workings and when it is there it will use you for its own ends, it will wear you like a suit made of meat and bone, it will take you over and join your constituency political party and rise effortlessly up within its ranks until it becomes Prime Minister, and then it will redirect all of the country’s budget into space research and build a rocket to the moon, but it will use that rocket, because it is evil, it will use that rocket to spin an enormous web between here and the moon and it will use that web to catch unwary alien visitors to our planet, and once it has done that it will take over their alien body just like it has yours and it will head out into the solar system and beyond into the galaxy and it WILL NOT STOP until it has enslaved the whole universe and Steven says to me “You’re over-reacting, I’ll put a glass over it and slip a bit of paper underneath and I’ll take it outside and let it go, would that be alright?” and I say ‘Yeah, OK.”

What’s also bad about spider season is that some people, some people with no sense of consideration for others, they’ll have one of these giant bastard spiders in their house and they’ll take a picture of the thing and then they’ll tweet it, and you have no idea this is going to appear in your Twitter feed, you’ll be sitting there thumbing down your timeline or whatever the hell it’s called and suddenly JESUS CHRIST WHAT’S THAT! There should be a rule that says if you’re going to tweet, or Facebook, or Vine or whatever, a picture of your own personal Bloody Big Spider you should send out a spoiler tweet before you do, something like ATTENTION! IN FIVE MINUTES I AM GOING TO TWEET A PICTURE OF A BLOODY BIG SPIDER SO IF YOU DON”T WANT TO SEE IT LOOK AWAY NOW, OR UNFOLLOW ME OR SOMETHING BECAUSE REALLY, DO YOU WANT TO KNOW A PERSON WHO TWEETS THIS KIND OF THING?

But that’s a lot more than 140 characters so, y’know, maybe not. 

Meanwhile...

Astonishingly busy lately, what with six-day working weeks and researching/prepping for a potential new job that will pretty much change my life even as it eats into what little is left of my spare time. 

For the time being, here's the traditional Tottenhamista Emergency Photo Of Debbie Harry. 

Abandoned Toys (2)

Grasping each other in the darkness as the inevitable shadow approaches. Abandoned toys. 

Three years ago...

...A post appeared on the old original Tottenhamista, recalling my first experience with the building called Union Point and how the place had been a touchstone for me during my time in this manor. 

At the time, Union Point had just been destroyed by fire during the Tottenham Riots: nothing remained but a gutted, smouldering shell. 

I walked past the site today. This is Union Point, three years on: 

Look at it. Barring the inclusion of 'penthouse' flats, it's exactly as it was when we first met.

Some will tell you that the renovation of Union Point is down to the urban regeneration funding promised by the Mayor of London after the riots. 

That's not true: The Clown Johnson and his office wanted a new design, one made of soul-free glass and steel and fake wood cladding that peels after a year or two. Haringey Council, an entity for which I have neither time nor respect and which to me is the epitome of institutionalised incompetence, for once did something laudable; they rejected The Clown's demands and insisted that Union Point be rebuilt as a modern copy of its original. 

So here it is. 

The best part? This. Even though there was no need to do so, even though the Co-operative Society has had no presence in the building or anywhere in the borough barring one shabby funeral directors further along the High Road, the council insisted on the reconstruction of this original feature: 

Welcome back, old friend. Even though there's no likelihood of CarpetRight employing a slightly chubby man in a cotton-wool beard come Winter, it's good to have you back. 

Never send a boy to do a man's job

Child endangerment laws are thankfully far tougher these days. 

Abandoned Toys (1)

Slowly sinking into the ever-encroaching green. Abandoned. 

Profraeders neded.

Remember Guys Meat Shop? This, from a little further down the same road:

I'll bet there's at least one mistake on there you'll miss on first reading. 

And yes, I've read a few old posts while I've been putting this together and Yes, the typos are leaping out at me and YES I shouldn't be criticising some other poor bastard's efforts, but nobody has to walk past a blog every sodding day like I have to walk past this poster so up yours. 

Hello there.

I’ve been away for a while. Not ‘in prison’ away, or ‘overseas’ away, just away. It’s something I have to do every now and then, maybe once a year. This time around, the need to not be here – to not be anywhere – was a lot stronger than it has been for a long time. Read between the lines if you like. You may be right. You may be wrong.

It’s very easy to disappear from the social media sphere. Stop posting on a blog and the hits fall more quickly than you’d imagine. Don’t tweet for a while; nobody notices. Facebook’s a little different: the people on your friends list might not notice you’ve not posted a cute kitten picture for a few weeks, or you’ve not ‘liked’ one of their doubtless pithy observations on life. Facebook itself, though, won’t let you go. Facebook is like a needy ex. Facebook will keep sending you emails, telling you how you were talked about, that you’ve had messages and notifications because it’s so really important that you sign in and check everything out.

I avoided Facebook for two weeks. It sent me an email every five hours. It was stalking, pure and simple. I should have notified the police.

Disappearing from the real world's not quite as easy, but it's still no effort to become as isolated as you wish to be. Don't answer the phone. Don't call your friends. Only do the things you need to do to stay alive, whatever 'alive' means to you. Everybody has other people to be concerned about, and in a few weeks you're re-classified as 'Whatever happened to...' or 'I must get back in touch with...'

For a while, I was willing, no, deliberately working towards becoming as separate as possible from the rest of the world. There were reasons, but that's not for here.

It’s time to start the long process of coming back. There are no promises; this post may be the only one for a while. There again, it may be the first in a flood of the buggers.

Let’s see, shall we?

And so it goes

I saw Alec yesterday. I’d decided to get out of the house because it was a lovely day and besides, there were things to find for customers. Hadn’t seen him for a while, not since I stopped wasting one Sunday a month selling tat to idiots. We had adjoining tables back then, and took turns to do the coffee run. Decaf Americano, Earl Grey with no milk.

He was standing outside when I got to the mart, puffing on his last cigarette before trading started. There was already a gaggle of people waiting outside, all of them recognisable from my trading days. Alec said hello as I walked up, asked how I was. Told him I was fine, returned the query, asked after his wife. Last time I’d spent the day at the next table to him, he’d got married just a month or so before.

He held up his left hand, waggled the fingers. No ring. Three years, it’d lasted. Amicable separation, no dispute over property; they just took what they’d brought in and called it quits. He’d moved out last week.

Sad to say, he looked good on it. Less haggard, pinker, healthier. I asked what had happened. He told me they'd just stopped getting on. He’s in his early forties, his ex-wife had been a few years less; they were both, he said, too set in their ways.

We both went in; he went to his tables, I bought a couple of books from him as he was the only one there who had anything like what I was looking for. I had a wander around the hall. Same people as three years ago, same things on display, but far fewer people there to buy them except for the too-recognisable gaggle who’d been outside.

I left, bought myself a coffee, sat in the sunshine in Bedford Square to drink it. Thought about them, all too set in their ways. 

Lord Who Made Thee Mighty

Last Friday. I’d arranged to meet Fran – the woman previously known here as the Pocket Sex Goddess but who is far more than so stupid, insulting and reductionist a title – at the Royal Festival Hall for an evening of Elgar’s music performed by the Philharmonia Orchestra, a performance that included Elgar’s Cello Concerto. Fran, who plays the cello, loves the Concerto.  As now do I.

I’d never knowingly heard it before. It’s a beautiful piece of music, different from and outside of the Elgar I was aware of, the loud, Last Night of the Proms, flag-waving and anthem-chanting Elgar. It’s always a wonderful thing to discover something new, especially if that something changes an opinion you considered unshakable. It’s an even more wonderful thing when that change comes in the company of somebody with the knowledge to guide you into a new and better understanding.

As the orchestra performed, from the corner of my eye I could see her doing the things she sometimes does when she hears music. Moving her hands into position on an imaginary instrument, a thing I last saw her do to the bassline in The Breeders’ Cannonball, playing while we were in a diner one night. Holding her head slightly more erect while listening to Enigma Variation #9, her love of the music at conflict with the sadness it brings to her.

Before she arrived, and with a little time to kill, I walked over Waterloo Bridge. On a slightly overcast evening, just cold enough to justify a light overcoat, there are few better places to be. London evolves continually; the commuters crossing the Thames every day may not be so immediately struck by its changes, just as they may not notice a colleague’s slow-growing hair, but as an only occasional visitor I was fortunate enough to see how much my city alters in even a short time. New buildings, high and proud, rearing above what was such a lowbuilt place; thankfully kept away from the eyeline to St. Paul’s, showing the cathedral the respect it demands even as their modernity throws its ancient glory into greater relief.

And the river. Always, always the river. Grey, mildly choppy on this late Spring evening. Every moment a new construct, a new form carved by its ever-moving waters. Growing ever more brilliant, shining silver as she widens out past the City’s obelisks, the sky a dull grey-blue. Then, as I reached half-way across, the clouds parted for a moment and sunlight the colour of vellum notepaper streamed down onto the water, changing its colour from small change to bullion. For the first time in far too long, I felt something stronger than happiness.

I’ve been lucky enough to travel to many different places. Some of those places still have a hold on my heart. The blasted dark landscape of rural Poland, the explosion of life and colour of Barcelona; I’ll always love them. No matter where I go though, I come back here, to the river, and that sense of joy fills me, time and again. This is my home. This is my city.

Afterwards, we walked across together. The last piece of the evening’s music still echoing in my head: Pomp and Circumstance March No. 1 in D: Land of Hope and Glory. This is my city. This is my home. This, I thought as I looked again at the water and felt again that sense of hopeless bliss, is my country. My country is not a land of fear, not a place where we search for people to blame. My country is one I love above all others but I do not, and never will, think of it as solely for those who fit a constrained set of Englishness. It’s a country of tolerance and welcome, of inclusivity, of compassion.

It worries me, in these darkening days, that there seem to be more people whose England rejects those values; people who would rather we closed our doors, turned down our lights and kept ourselves quietly, primly, to ourselves. Those people are misguided at best and dangerous at worst, and we of all people should learn the lesson of history. England today, London today, the same city that lifted my soul so swiftly and suddenly that evening, is reflected not in their isolationism, but in the joyful variety of the Southbank market, in the Spanish churros dipped in dark melted chocolate that Fran and I ate, in the seemingly endless selection of vodkas we drank in a tiny Polish bar late that night.

My London is Elgar; unchanging, traditional. My London is the Thames; ceaselessly protean, always new. Both aspects always beautiful.

Plaese, don’t let it become anything else.

LOVELY THINGS: 2

How many times in my life have I heard Wichita Linesman? How many times have I sang along with it when it came on the radio, or when that old clip of Glen Campbell was shown on the television?

Why is it, then, that it was only today, as it was played on 6Music, that I understood what the song is about? Until now, it was a strange thing, half-diary, half-love song.

Today, it’s become the most eloquent, poetic expression of love; about how this man, this ordinary man with his mind on the quotidian demands of his job, a job that can be described in seven ordinary words -

I am a linesman for the county

- suddenly, helplessly, thinks of the woman he loves and describes in equally simple words how much he loves her -

And I need you more than want you, and I want you for all time

- then turns back to his job, back to the things he has to do in the coming days. Until she comes back into his mind, bringing with her that haunting phrase again.

That’s what happens. You get on with your day, and when you least expect it you find somebody there with you. Sometimes they’re someone you want, sometimes they’re someone you miss, sometimes they’re someone who’s gone.

Don’t ask me how before now I’d seen it as nothing other than a collection of rhyming words set to a memorable tune, nor how today’s hearing took on such a different meaning. All I know is this:

It was always a good song. Now it’s a perfect song.

S-DCBRs For This Week...

...Well, it seems that the two days off over Easter that caused last week's comics delivery to be delayed enough to derail reviewing just wasn't enough for the distributors, so they've delayed this week's shipment by a day as well.

Same thing next week because of the May Day Bank Holiday.

By the time I'm in the same place as the comics are, sleep will have been had and the books will be a couple of weeks old.

Back to the usual edge-of-sanity ranting soon.

But really. Really. Another delay? For no good reason?

Lazy sods.

A Small Thing, But Mine Own

Possibly the most trivial thing ever, but something that struck me the other night.

Here's a panel from X-Men 13 (or X-Women, or XX-Men if you want to play 'I Know Chromosomes')

Notice anything about it? How about this one:

Still not got it? This one's the giveaway:

Look at the lettering; in particular, look at the letter 'I'. Look specifically at the letter 'I' in the words 'I' and 'IT'S' or 'SIM'.  Do you see it now? What the letterer has done is to differentiate between 'I' used as a pronoun and 'I' as part of a larger wordform by using bilateral serifs in the former. It's very clever,  almost subliminal, guiding the reader towards a closer identification with the character who's speaking and also reinforcing the character by strengthening his or her self-image. In this comic, this is the work of "VC's Joe Caramagna" who I presume is Joe Caramagna working as part of the VC studio.

This bilateral serif / sans serif is also used by other VC staff: here's a panel from All-New Doop 1, lettered by "VC's Clayton Cowles":

The problem is, though, that once you've noticed this, you can't help but to also notice things like this:

See how jarring that serif is on the 'I' in 'IT', especially as there are only three examples of the letter in what is a pretty verbose panel? And again:

This one's even more of a jolt given the frequency of the letter; it subtracts something from the assonance of the dialogue. 

Yes, this is an astonishingly trivial thing to notice in a comic-book. It may be Marvel house style, it may be used only by the VC letterers. I guarantee, however, you'll be looking for the same thing in the next comic you read.

SDCBRs!

Lots going on here at Tottenhamista Towers, so just a few quick observations. More later...


KINGS WATCH 5

Hot pulpy goodness! Dragons getting buggered (not literally)! Heroes making noble sacrifices! That's what you want from a comicbook, at least that's what I want from a comicbook, and that's what you're getting from this baby, baby.


However, given my position as North London's leading pilkunnussija*, I must question the on-off nature of the possessive apostrophe within these pages:

ON!

OFF!

And how about buying The Phantom a Philishave?

Ghosts who walk should always be clean-shaven.
It's only right.

Also: The Phantom's headquarters is in some place called Bangallah. I'd watch out for those fatwas, fellas.

Otherwise: lots of fun, and it leads straight into a Flash Gordon title by the same writer. But not by the same artist. Which is wrong.







*Finnish for 'pedant'. Literal translation: 'comma fucker'.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Of course things aren't looking any better. Sales plummeting, line-wide dullness, underwhelming reader reaction...






(Though I do love me some Giffen)

THE LATE REVIEW: Steve Jobs by Walter Isaacson

I’m writing this on the third consecutive Mac laptop I have bought. Just as most other Apple computer users, I wouldn’t care to use a Windows machine if given the choice. Frankly though, when you get down to it, there’s not a great deal of difference. Not anymore.

So: what does this enormous book tell us about Steve Jobs? Nothing we didn’t already know; that he was a deeply unpleasant man, that his ‘reality distortion field’ was nothing more than a heightened form of bullying; that he was very nearly incapable of forming functioning relationships with other people. Most of this we knew already.

All credit to Isaacson for the interviews with those who knew Jobs at different times during his life, and more so for getting to sit down and talk to Jobs himself as that life drew to a close. But even in those supposedly revealing interviews, Jobs is still playing interviewer and reader like a card sharp plays his mark. None of Jobs’ answers have much depth, and instead bringing the conversation around to what seems to be his own question to us. Of course, it’s the question we’d all ask in the same circumstances, the question we’ll all ask at one time; what did you think of me?

Jobs would have liked you to think, and Apple would still like you to think, that he changed the world. He didn’t. He made a very small part of it a little bit easier for a very small number of people. He created, or at least took credit for creating, devices that have changed consumer spending patterns for as long as it takes for the next wave of change to come along.  He introduced a design aesthetic to a work tool and in doing so turned that tool into a lifestyle accessory.

That’s still a huge achievement for any person, whether they did it alone or as part of a larger entity, and I don’t wish to belittle it. Whether it’s as laudable as some see it is debatable; possibly the Mac pushed personal computing forwards by years, possibly the corporation’s (read: Jobs’s) refusal to play with others held the industry back.

Either way, I know that when I heard of his death, I was saddened; Jobs may have been the kind of man you wouldn’t care to know, but he at least was passionate about everything he did, and that in itself is worth saluting. Raise a carrot juice, if you choose. He’d have liked that. 

Experiencing Technical Difficulties

Please stand by.

LOVELY THINGS: 1

Tower of Shadows #1, September 1969. Jim Steranko. Every time I look at this story, something new hits me. The car, lost among the rock. The figures enhanced and enlarged by the headlights. The symmetry. The trees, reaching up towards the house and out into the sky.

Lovely.

THE LATE REVIEW: Bleeding Edge

Some disconnected thoughts:

How do we describe Thomas Pynchon?  How do we describe his work?  He fits no genre, we can’t say he’s a crime writer or a humourist or a historical writer even though he’s all three and many more. He’s a recluse who’s been a guest star on The Simpsons. Some of his books are small, slim things of compact beauty while others are massive, life-engulfing monsters that demand months of close attention. He looks – though photographs number no more than nine or ten, and most are from high school yearbooks or his naval days – like someone who’d have trouble with a Hardy Boys adventure, yet he’s written some of the finest books of the twentieth century.

There was a time when I was part of a book group, mainly for the food. Don’t judge me. The only book that nobody could get more than a few pages into – and bear in mind that most choices were of the Guardian persuasion, unreadable but fashionable South American over-cooked metaphor-heaps – was Pynchon’s Vineland. It was the only time I chose a book and I admit to doing so because my primary aim was to give them something to really chew on, without wanting to over-alienate with a Gravity’s Rainbow or a Mason & Dixon.

People, people I trusted, told me to read Pynchon. I finally succumbed and read The Crying of Lot 49 on a transatlantic flight. It was too short; too short for the flight and too short full stop. This was a strange new thing, full of darkness and fireworks, dragging the reader in with its eerie mystery and pushing them away with its impenetrable verbosity. Once the jetlag had dissipated, my hunt for more Pynchon was a parody of the search for V.

So what of Bleeding Edge? Do we turn Tom’s own taste for wordplay against it, rail that it isn’t a book about the frustrations of the lead singer in The Wedding Present, it isn’t Bleedin’ Gedge? Do we complain that the punnery is there for its own sake rather than as a sub-set of Pynchon stylistic tropes? There’s a line near the end of Bleeding Edge, conflating Scooby Doo with a drugs cartel, that you just know had Tom smacking his hands together as he wrote it, telling himself that this was the one that’d make half his readers say ‘No. That’s too much, even for you.’

Or do we say that this time, the plot, in none of his books anything more substantial than a 70s Mystery Movie – and which this time is a 00s Mystery Movie - never anything more than an armature on which to hang the dazzle and the flash and the songs and the layers of astonishment … This time, it’s barely there. It doesn’t happen. Narrative, always a thing the reader has to winnow out from the circus going on around him, is mainly imparted from character’s words; the largest event of the 20^ist century so far – and Bleeding Edge is most certainly Pynchon’s take on the 21^st century so far – happens in a single line. I think that’s a good choice, though; it doesn’t need more.

There’s a feeling one gets as life goes on; a sense that time speeds up and each consecutive year gets that bit shorter. Each book from Pynchon now is seen as a treat, each one may well be the last – he’s 77 - his schedule speeding up from ‘a book whenever he feels like it’ to ‘very nearly a book every couple of years’. Accompanying this, there’s the realisation that his books have been pinging backwards and forwards through time, from Mason & Dixon through Gravity’s Rainbow to Inherent Vice and Bleeding Edge, settings moving from the 1780s to 2001, and with each passing book the period between each shrinks ever smaller, time speeding up until it catches both author and reader.

The problem with Bleeding Edge is this: the narrative is propelled mainly by dialogue and interaction, but the characters are interchangeable and near-indistinguishable. Everybody seems to be delivering schtick rather than talking, each of them representing a different aspect of culture or technology at the meeting of two centuries, each of them a collection of references rather than a personality.

Talking of references: only in a Pynchon would you get Pokemon and SZ Sakall mentioned within twenty words of each other.

But this is pretty much the point. This is, after all, what a Pynchon book is for. Don’t come to him for crystalline prose or tight plot structure, because his work is, more than anyone else’s I can think of, designed to sprawl, to digress, to go off into unexpected places. Leave your map behind, sit back, enjoy the pyrotechnics. And if you ever see him, try to get a photo.

This Is What They Want

Yesterday's grammar-based post got around six times more hits than anything else ever posted either here or on the original site. 

Just for all the new bods, and because it's too good to abandon to the ephemera of Twitter, here's a picture of a new shop that's opened in Bruce Grove. 

SLEEP-DEPRIVED COMIC-BOOK REVIEWS

Nope, not today.

I'm nicely rested.

There's not much out this week.

None of it was worth my attention.

Here's a picture of Debbie Harry.

Give Me A Second So I Can - Catch My Breath

Possibly the best final sentence in a PR release ever...


"The fifth instalment in the highly successful series and potentially the best yet.
The Saturday Sessions from The Dermot O’Leary Show is packed full of 40 live tracks from a whole host of artists, performed exclusively on Dermot O’Leary‘s weekly BBC Radio 2 show.
Much of the album is full of unusual and beautiful covers. Highlights include London Grammar’s take on Chris Isaak’s “Wicked Game”, John Newman covering the classic “Sign Your Name” and Biffy Clyro giving their spin to Daft Punk feat. Pharrell Williams’ “Get Lucky”. Along with stripped back performances of some of the artists’ own tracks showing their true musicianship, this album is a must for fans of the bands, fans of the music and fans of Dermot O’Leary."

The Concrete And The Clay Beneath My Feet

There are many reasons why the brief and scarce hours spent with the Pocket Sex Goddess are so precious. She has, for one, no idea why she has that nickname and regardless of what she thinks, she’s wrong; she can drink me under the table; it does my ego no end of good to be seen with her; and she has the same slightly finicky approach to grammar as do I.

We’re both familiar with the concept of English being a fluid creature, ever evolving as common usage, hateful though it is, tweaks a definition here or a sentence structure there. We’re both open to neologisms even though they may have the aesthetic qualities of the new Routemaster bus.

However, we both have lines we feel should not be crossed. Mine is the less vs. fewer’ thing. I don’t care about what Stephen Fry says and I don’t give a damn about supermarket express checkouts; when it comes to a lesser number of countable nouns, it’s ‘fewer’. Yes it is. Don’t argue.

Hers is just as simple; the use of the words ‘could of’ or ‘should of’ in place of ‘could have’ or ‘should have’. I can’t help but agree and indeed did, loudly and joyously, when she brought it up. Just because something sounds as though it could be spelled in a certain way, there’s no reason it should be. We have homophones and homographs and all the many joys of this language and we should embrace each of them like a kitten that’s just come in from the rain.

Today, though, finding myself with a few hours of virtual house arrest as I waited for a phone call which, though promised, never came, I amused myself by tidying up, by taking photographs of the cat, and by thumbing through my copy of Eric Partridge’s Usage And Abusage.

This is what Partridge has to say:

would have, in conditional sentences, is incorrect for had, as in ‘If he would have wished, he could have spared you a troublesome journey’.

The ground turned to quicksand, all that was once certain turned to dust. Both the PSG and myself had been arguing for what we thought was correct, and both of us were wrong. Looking at Partridge’s edict, it seems the same rule, based as it is on the past tense of ‘have’, also applies to ‘could have’ when used in the past tense. .

So now we have to re-train ourselves to say ‘would had’ and ‘could had’, and to contract them to ‘would’d’ and ‘could’d’.

Which, if you ask me, are small prices to pay for our continued ability to annoy the hell out of others.

I Dreamed Last Night

In the dream, there’s a garden. It’s beautiful. It has flower beds arranged to make a maze that I walk through, dazed by the scent. Although each bed is small, plants grow high at each side, obscuring the sightline more than a few feet in front of you, so the walk is unguided, with no destination, a mystery tour in miniature.

There’s a hedge separating the garden from a house. The house also cannot be seen properly. An arch cut into the hedge is the only way to pass from one to the other. Everything is slightly overgrown, as though nobody has tended to it for some time.

I go through the arch, stooping a little, dodging spiderwebs that aren’t there. A door, a farmhouse door in two parts, opening at top or bottom or both, is fully open. Somebody is standing just inside, just out of view. She turns and looks toward me but not at me; she’s small, her hair is loosely pulled back and held with something elastic. It’s blue, a bright blue, more a turquoise, and I know as soon as I see it who she is.

She seems occupied with something, not acknowledging me as I approach with my head pushed forward in curiosity. I want to ask her what she’s doing but the voice, the words, aren’t there. She stands in the doorway now, holding a small watering can made of tin. She lifts her head and I see her face for the first time: I know her, I’ve seen her so many times before, but she’s different this time. Her eyes seem too far away, her skin is too dark, too much like she’s been in the sun. She never liked the sun.

She looks at me. Her face looks unnatural now, heavily made-up. Even on nights out she preferred just the barest of cosmetics. This is not right.

She should smile. She knows me. Instead, she just looks with empty, uninterested eyes as if she were reading a train timetable or watching people from a balcony.

It’s then that I see her mouth, her lips too close together, held in a pout by something inside. I say her name, a question rather than a greeting. Nothing changes.

And then I understand. I know why she looks so much like and still so much unlike herself, why her face seems to be falling into planes more suited to a prone figure than to someone standing upright.

It’s how she looked the last time I saw her; laying unmoving and unwakeable, cushioned in white satin, protected by pale wood.

I drop before her, no strength in my legs. “I’m sorry”, I tell her. “I just didn’t know.” She looks through me, taking her watering can and moving, dreamlike, purposeless, past me and into the garden.

I can do nothing. Just stay there, kneeling, powerless, sobbing the same thing over and over again. “I’m sorry, I didn’t know, I’m so so sorry,” Again and again, feeling my face burn with pain and regret, eyes blinded by tears.

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I didn’t know…” Again and again, without hope, as she walks into the garden and leaves forever. 

SLEEP-DEPRIVED COMIC-BOOK REVIEWS (3)

Tuesday’s over! Wednesday’s here! It’s time for SDCBR!

Cooke, Cooke, Cooke,
Cookability, that's the
 beauty of gaaaaas...

All-Star Western 29

I’ve bought this every damn month since September 2011. I bought every one of the 70 issues of the Jonah Hex series before that and I still can’t type the name Jonah without slowing down and doing it with one finger and then still getting it wrong.

When I picked up this issue to read it, a few pages got stuck together and it opened at an ad for a videogame. I couldn’t tell. Anyway: guest artist this month which is a bit of a wrench, both visually and emotionally as the usual Moritat pencils and inks are one of the main reasons for sticking with ASW. Writing’s a bit odd, there are narrative captions that keep changing tense so you’re never sure what’s happening or happened or will happen. Also, characters sometimes use contractions in speech and sometimes don’t, so there’s a disconnect as you try to reconcile the differing patterns.

And here’s a thing, a small thing but one that sticks in the mind and the craw: throughout this run, Hex has been drawn to resemble (on his good side) a youngish Clint Eastwood. Here, he’s more like a Thunderbirds puppet, or maybe Davy Jones out of The Monkees after a crash diet.

Very pretty cover, though, as is the case with most issues of ASW and of Jonah Hex before it: this month it’s by Darwyn Cooke who counts as One Who Can Do No Wrong, Not Even That Watchmen Thing in my book.

You do realise, I hope, that one of the small pleasures in my benighted life was to sit on a Sunday afternoon, full of good lunch, and to read a pile of comics, maybe two or three week’s worth. Nowadays I get in on a Tuesday, put a pizza in the oven and read what I’ve brought home straight away so as to share my forensic insight with you. Appreciate my sacrifice, mofo.

Silver Surfer 1

So looking forward to this. Great character who’s not been able to hold down his book for years, great creators. On the down side, Mike Allred seems to be a very binary taste (can you have binary taste?) in that some folk love him like I do, some can’t stand him  (</Lina Lamont>), at least not on ‘straight’ superhero stuff, and FF didn’t exactly set the shelves alight, did it?. Also, word from the shop punters is that the only Surfer that’s really worked is the original ‘Oh Woe Is Me I Am Alone’ Space Morrissey version, and the new try looks like it goes for a more Doctor Who vibe, what with there being a young companion along for the ride, and the ‘Anywhere and Everywhere’ tagline.  Dan Slott, though? Started me reading Spider-Man again after a twenty-year estrangement, and I loved his Great Lakes Avengers stuff. So, everything looking hunky dory from this viewpoint.  Here goes.

Ha! Doctor Who opening! FF 48 was twelve years ago! The two kids are named Eve and Dawn, probably because it would be dumb to call them Midday and ClosingTime. Allred draws pretty women. The Surfer looks a bit off. Can’t put my finger on why.

The Incredulous Zed. The Impossible Palace. Definite Doctor Who vibe going on here. Microsmic versus Macrocosmic. Trivial everyday concerns  - the thread count on sheets and Vegan catering -  versus the giant planetary fear of Galactus.

Ooh! Cabin In The Woods moment! I love Cabin In The Woods. It’s the eyes. That’s why the Surfer looks off, the eyes are a bit over-kohled.

The Never Queen. And a mysterious girl who is the most important person in the Universe.

Oh yeah. Definite Doctor Who vibe.

Back for the next issue? Ah, why not?

Superior Spider-Man 30

You know what? I don’t like Spider-Man 2099. I don’t like his costume, or his ridiculous expletives (‘Shocking’. ‘Bithead’. Just say what you want to say, man. Surely in 85 years the language has evolved?). Slott’s only plotted this issue, and his dialogue’s been one of the best things about SSM.

Anyway, what you’ve been expecting to happen for the last thirty issues happens here, maybe a little earlier than you’d expected. Certainly an issue before I’d expected. And there’s a big ol’ hint that the big bad isn’t who you think it is (in fact it’s more than just a hint, if I’m reading it correctly). There’s a big two-page spread where you can say “I know that issue” or maybe “I have that issue” if you’re a millionaire.

Oh, and there’s a full reprint of the recent Black Widow #1 in the back, so that’s nice.

Hawkeye 18

An Annie Wu issue, which means a Kate issue, and Kate issues are always fab because Kate is fab and so is Annie Wu. Shit gets real here as the Cat Food Man gets a name (And what a name it is for us old bastards) and some very bad things happen.

It’s an obviously Fraction comicbook, lots of disjointed dialogue that sounds realistic but isn’t (and if that sounds like a diss, it’s not: writing dialogue compact enough for the comics page but which carries both information and characterisation and still carries any resemblance to natural speech is bloody hard. Fraction does it better than most).

The thing is, Hawkeye – whether Kate or Clint orientated – has always been the Marvel Comic you could read without having to know about lots of other Marvel Comics. That’s why I’ve been able to recommend it, in both pamphlets and trades, without reservation, to everybody, comics bod or civilian, who walks into the shop. He’s a guy (and she’s a gal) who shoots arrows. No costumes, no superstuff. Even when the book has tied into the rest of the line, your casual reader’s never really needed to know who those women were who turned up with cards on their heads, or what Kate had done outside of this book. Now, suddenly, there’s costumes turning up, albeit only for one panel, and even though it’s not essential to know who Cat Food Man was/is it’d be pretty handy if you did. 

Still, despite minor reservations creeping in, a solid, enjoyable – no, delightful – book.

Time to stack up some z's now, so tomorrow I can wake up and realise with creeping horror what I've done. Really ought to write these books' names down on a notepad so I know who they are in the morning.